My relationship started amazing with sweetie, and it has never - even for a moment, been anything less. He really is wonderful, and I definitely hope to call him my husband ... one day.
But with the good can come the bad. Don't get me wrong, nothing bad has happened.
When I got involved with him, I knew what he did for a living. I guess I never really thought of what he did as a negative, or really even thought about it at all. He has a career and he loves it, so there wasn't much to think about. To be honest I was just thankful he wasn't unemployed like the last person I went out with.
Then one night while he was at work it hit me. I'm dating a police officer. It hit me hard, and I know that sounds odd. I had never thought of it to be upsetting before. So why now? Was it because my feelings for him have grown so dramatically, and I feared for his safety? Maybe.
When you see things on the news about police officers being injured, you think it's sad, of course. But now I pay extra attention. You see, I work in an office. My boyfriend doesn't have to worry about me being shot every day when I go to work. But with him, I worry about it every night I know he's out there.
Of course he's been extensively trained, he takes his job seriously and I know that. I won't lie though, when it's starting to get late and the phone rings, my heart stops for a second ... and then I pick up the phone to hear my mom's voice asking me for the name of that guy on that one show she likes.
It's such a mixture of feelings. I'm proud of him, I know he's out there protecting our streets and making us all safer. I'm also afraid, I'm afraid of something happening and losing this amazing man that I have fallen so deeply in love with.
It's funny because a majority of times he won't tell people what he does for a living. I'm not sure if it's because they instantly become uncomfortable or what. He says it's because a lot of people don't like police officers. Personally, I don't get that, they're doing their job.
Like I said, with the good, comes the bad. But even knowing that ... I wouldn't change a thing.
